Because I am not blessed enough like those morning birds, a reason is needed to continue my soliloquy. Is it a material reason like money or a psychological one like fame? Is it anything related to the desire to get connected with other minds? Is it connected to that age old pseudo-myth of creativity? Is it because of boredom? Is it just because of the desire for feel ‘separate ‘and unique? Is it natural? Is it because of a healthy mind or is it something generated from a pathological one? is it not an excuse to allow the mind to wander again? Is it because of the frustrations from the past? Is it because of one’s own modest material conditions? Is it because of fear of social death? Is it because of one’s own ego which even doesn’t allow me to enter in to the zone of ’selling ‘even though I have to ‘buy’ everything which have prize tags ?Is it because of shame when I think of my own price tag? Is it because of overvaluation of one’s ego or undervaluation of his spirit? Or is it because I question the very idea of valuation itself? Is it because of the innate nature of mind which is caught in the habit of endless chattering? Is it because I am rich enough that my poverty is no more a problem to me? Or is it otherwise? Isn’t it not my own mind the real reason behind? Or is it not my mind that talks now and then reasons for a reason?
All questions contain its own answers. In another words, they are the answers. Now I can see light through that window. It is the beginning of another day. There are fewer thoughts now. Lesser that when I started .I just feel that there is no definite reason for a soliloquy. But a reason can definitely end it. Causes, talkative mind, and results - they all are one and the same. They seem to be different only after becoming the past.
I hope a reason will not end this soliloquy. Also I don’t want to start this day with the planting of another tiny but potential seed which may grow into a thought tree by the end of this day. Instead of that I am going to listen to the sound of the Chinese flute.(www.youtube.com/i_B8H956_rg)
How did you start your day today?
Do tell me.